one of the most frequently asked questions I have been received these ‘recent’ days is ‘Where have you gone?’. Oh, I don’t know.

I’m still there. Still go to school (with super free schedule). Still go out and make some little money and spend bigger little money. Still tirelessly complain about how suck the F university is. Still breathe in polluted dried air of the autumn-winter mixed weather. Still exhale some dramatic things of my brain and my stuck memories.

‘how happy are you’, said a closed friend of mine. ‘just like what you want, yah, back to your Xuan Hoa days in Hanoi”. Hah, I don’t think that’s kind of happiness but rather kind of uselessness. Xuan Hoa was the past that still sometimes lingers in my mind with lots of emotional feelings. But I shouldn’t and I mustn’t live a Xuan Hoa life forever. Xuan Hoa is a priceless gift of this youth but what gifts often do is spoiling the life afterwards. I have to live for myself, the person of me in the future, so that person won’t have so many abundant wasting time thinking of how I (now) wasted mine. And the responsibility of using my parents’ money to go to university too.

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I’ve lost in my cosmic mind and floating thoughts.

are there any outgo places for me to shift this situation better? these days, I’m thinking of becoming a freelancer after a time working at offices. but then, I don’t know, and I lose my state in the harsh flowing.

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